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Walking Past Open Windows

“Do you know what *genius* means?,” the stranger on the train asked me. “Hmmm, someone who is smart; I mean really smart. Smarter than the norm,” I replied. He shook his head with a messy crop of hair on top. “A genius is someone, who never gives up. Never give up writing love. Never be obsessive about what others think of your words. Try to write the words, which float out from your unconsciousness; in the middle of the night or elsewhere under any special circumstances,” he said.

Last week, Kerry asked us to talk to a stranger and write about it, which for me is nothing new or offbeat. I do it all the time. On the train ride home, while my mind was full of new and old ideas, the above conversation took place between me and a guy who seemed graceless with a huge inner scar. I got home, ate something and fell asleep. I had a dream. I don’t remember a thing. I woke up to the sound of the alarm and the same routine began. A few hours passed. I looked peaked. Took the lift down for some fresh air in temperatures far above zero. I took a quick glance at my own shadow and realized that only a shot of espresso can bring my focus back to reality. I entered the little shop on my right, put the coins, including a lot of pennies, down on his counter and asked for a double shot. He looked at me with a sweet smile. I looked at his inner arm and saw an appealing tattoo font. I grabbed it and read: “Keep walking past open windows.” I asked him to tell me the story behind it. He did with a bigger smile, looked into my eyes, and said: “Never give up.” I was stunned. A few tears found their way in my eyes. Two strangers with diverse histories told me the same thing in less than twenty four hours.

I walked more unfocused out the glass doors while listening to the sound of the Doors: “People are strange when you’re a stranger… Faces look ugly when you’re alone…”

… and that day, I never got back to reality.

S

Paralleled

Here is sunny Toronto (pronounced /təˈrɒntoʊ/)…

I’m clicking on these little white keys and fancying the sound they are making… while the other half of my brain is on strike and struggles hard to get away from the virtual world and take a journey to… hmmm…

I am lying down, yawning non-stop, and craving a quick blissful nap on the wet but fresh grass, which was just trimmed less than an hour ago… hypnotized by the iron lattice tower, with a bottle of Vin de Bordeaux on the other side of my body… and the poor girl is all puzzled and tries desperately to find me among hundreds of napping souls.

In the parallel world, I am sitting with my usual venti cup in a corner park, full of wobbling creatures, and where I’ve never been to but will discover soon… sitting on the other side is a fully pregnant lady in orange stripes, who’s deciding whether to name her newborn Sophie… or just Sun.

… and I’d like to know how to return back to my own box.

S

The Crying Wolves

It’s almost dawn;
I hear the howling of
the tearful wolves
and all those enraged
souls.

How can we bear the pain
and the hatred
floating out of the
bodies of many
around us?

How can we
mourn the mother,
who will mourn all her life
and melts as the
candles on the birth cake
of her own son,
who won’t see the
Autumn of
thirteen eighty nine.

The moon is crying,
and the countless stars.
The voiceless birds still weep
for their loss all long night.

The classroom full of innocent eyes
staring at the emptiness of the board
on the black wall;
waiting for his body to shine
so they can all salute him
and rise up.

What to confess when
they are murdering his
tortured thoughts?
Where to flee when
the war is about to start?
The same bloody war
that goes on for
oh so long.

I heard his last breaths
with the noose
around his neck, with all his glory
resting on the prison soil.
I feel the tears of
all the crying wolves.

I wait and crave
the day
of upheaval;
the day of the monsters
prosecuted
in front of
the mourning moms
and us all.

S

Gâteau d’Anniversaire

The month of May with all its natural beauty… the month of birthdays of loved ones close and far… the last few days were spent around many cakes in different shapes… or over the phone to wish them all that they wish for.

The lady, who’s beyond love and has been my idol for all my life… the one who, beside the genes, made me who I am today… a great friend, who defines coolness and whose blue *Lego* cake made us all nostalgic in the tapas bar… another lovely friend, whom I met a few years back at another birthday bash of hers, when she blew a candle on a half-watermelon cake and made me admire her uniqueness… and the little birthday boy for whom I was present when he opened his pure eyes to this not-so-pure world in room number seven.

They might come with many insights, but they are all Taurus with a sensible outlook on life… they might come from different times, but they all closed their eyes, made a wish, and blew a candle for many more happy returns!

S

Lost In Thought

I passed the park
and saw a guy,
left alone
on the edge of a dead tree
with a to-go cup
and the orange end of his pot,
hiding under le parapluie.
oh, it’s
pouring down from above;
the cruelest clouds
tangoing in
the grayest sky.

A few days were left behind…

I passed the same old park,
the soaked up guy
wasn’t there to nod to me, hi
I saw this time
a guy who
was killing time;
left alone under the
yellow sun.
his abused child was only five;
he looked calm
with a fragile heart.

I passed the park
nodded to him, bye
left the roughness of the present
all behind…

… and suddenly I felt dodgy inside
and left alone,
all alone
lost in thoughts.

S

Blindness

… And today I met her again… not a face-to-face kind of interaction, but from a distance just like the previous times… she was tucked in the same beige raincoat, holding a bag in one hand and her white stick in the other one… she, in all her glory, left me in vague wonders and entire appreciation.

It’s surprising how the universe sends us signs when we feel blue in our guts… the saddening yet inspiring signs of people who were once merrier than today… or perhaps not as much as their future… how sickening it is to grieve about the silliest things while this lady and many more like her lost their ability or were never able to observe the beauty of the spring colours… the breeze of the blue sky with its shapeless clouds… the people rushing in and out with often frowning faces… not that they miss seeing the lady, who is all dressed up to perfection yet accompanied with an attitude as numb as a faceless mannequin on a random display… nor does the corrupted teenage girl in an all-ripped John and Yoko tee shouting out loud and with no self-respect whatsoever.

She might not see what we all see, but what she sense is more precious indeed… she feels the beauty of her surroundings, I can tell… she feels the greenness of the only leaf on that maple tree, which once was a nest for many wings… she feels the aroma coming out of the café at her train stop, feels the kindness of the guy who sells her everyday cup, while defining the beauty of life in her own heart.

She continues her walk, heading blindly to the brightest highway… the highway of hope and desire.

S

Heart of Palm

What an antic and odd world we live in… full of creatures coming from different eras… entirely different times…

Some seek praise in desperation and some feed them with attention… some dream big hopelessly, while some are engrossed in daydreaming… some smile at their future love and some learn how to hurt us and carry on… some know how to fly and some are unfaithful to the sky… their heart is black; they don’t feel white… they only see black and white… some conduct then play it hard; that’s when the king kills the knight…

… and at end of it all, they all seek a crystal heart as pleasing as the heart of palm…

S

Underground Stories | Take Four

It’s humid… she likes it sticky and humid.

Who would ever get inspired in the stickiest air, in the darkness, where the smell of old papers seldom becomes unbearable, and when the rest of the world lighting up their tobacco sticks, then sipping on their by-now empty glasses… Oh, the coldest liquids crawling down their throats at the corner bars, while getting all burnt inside out by the warmth of the May sun.

She, who sees the innocent faces in their blue carts, smiling at the strangest strangers in their eyes… she, who sees the elderly ladies, getting offered reddish seats by high school kids… and she, who sees the same guy, begging for a loonie to feed his drunken thought right after the sun fades into the darkened night… Yes, she still gets energized by many souls around and reminds her own to love the world more than the past.

The clock at her stop reads 5:36 post meridiem… It’s still humid and she likes it pretty humid!

S