Monthly Archives: August 2008

“A Girl Scout is clean in thought, word, and deed.

It’s easy to be clean on the outside. All you need is soap and water and a scrubbing brush. It’s harder to be clean on the inside.”

— From Junior Girl Scout Handbook

Good Morning LA…

“In the land of the lotus eaters time plays tricks on you. One day you are dreaming, the next your dream has become your reality. It was the best of times, if only someone had told me. Mistakes were made, hearts were broken, harsh lessons learned. My family goes on without me while I drown in a sea of pointless p****. I don’t know how I got here, but here I am; rotting away in the California sun. There are things I need to figure out – for her sake at least. The clock is ticking, the gap is widening. She won’t always love me, no matter what.”

Hank Moody in Californication

Summer Time…

My rainy summer has so far been close to wicked!

Seeing Coldplay on the big stage for the fourth time brought a sense of “hmmm, not-sure” compared to previous shows… Chris Martin is the male version of Tori Amos for me, though… Call me biased or whatever, but I did, and will, go to all his live performances if I can… It’s clearly become a personal cultural thingy… The recent Counting Crows gig, on the other hand, was my first time seeing them live… As much as I like their music, I don’t know them too well… The open air concert last night at the Molson Amphitheatre was cool… Made me feel like I was listening to an old friend telling me his secret love stories with nice music in the background… Alas, despite being a Brit fan for life, I missed my beloved Thom Yorke this year… Apparently, there was a big rainbow across the theatre after the heavy rain on Friday, which made it a magical night at their “In Rainbows” tour!

Woody Allen’s new film “Vicky Cristina Barcelona” was another story which made you smile, but at the same time made you miss his oldies… I would give this one a 3 or 4 out of 5 stars… However, watching Mr. Bardem for more than an hour is nothing to complain about!

What else? Oh, I’m looking forward to the Tiff 08… I will keep you posted on the films I get a chance to see and other experiences of the festival, say having a coffee with one of the cover page celebrities at a corner café in Yorkville! Yeah, right…

S

The Art of Losing…

Imagine the mind being lost in others’ minds, which are as lost, if not more so… You walk through the glass doors, ask the red-haired guy to show you the book you were looking for… You pick it up, browsing through it all before opening the first page which reads:

The art of losing isn’t hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.

Lose something everyday. Accept the fluster
of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn’t hard to master.

Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, the names, and where it was you meant
to travel. None of these will bring disaster.

I lost my mother’s watch. And look! My last, or
next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn’t hard to master.

I lost two cities, lovely ones, And, vaster,
some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn’t a disaster.

– Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture
I love) I shan’t have lied. It’s evident
the art of losing’s not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.

“One Art,” from The Complete Poems 1927-1979, by Elizabeth Bishop

You can’t believe what you just read, so you read it again and again and once again… You walk out the same doors thinking these words are the best thing that could happen to you at that moment… The lost moment of despair… The moments you miss, but then you realize the art of losing is not too hard to master!

S

Half Moon…

Today the sun was out when desperation flows right through your eyes… On the other side of the walls, the rest take delight in keeping you in the dark… So today you need to make up for your recent loss… The loss you gave up on with no effort, to turn it into your dream life…

Today the sun shines and the moon will be half at night… Tonight I’ll stay calm and dare to dream a dream life…

S