This is one of those days when I can totally relate to the world of the writer’s block… I want to write not for the sake of practicing, but mainly for distraction… I need a major distraction to rescue me from all the judgmental and the lying eyes… Those staring eyes that make my heart beat faster and feel sick inside…
What should I write about? This is perhaps the most misleading question one should ask before the first attempt of writing… My mind is dictating me to write on my arduous plans and self ambitions… on certain things that are floating out of my life… on the wrong decisions I sometimes make, which remind me that life is not a contest but a learning journey… on faraway places and the other side of the horizon… on his big lies and all the favours he gets in return… on being desirably or undesirably selfish… on negative outlooks or on Sylvia’s* Bell Jar…
This is when my heart shuts up my knackered mind… This is when I can sense the block is gone and I’m almost done…
This is the end of the blue era…
S
* Sylvia here refers to “Sylvia Palth“
"…I didn't know why I was going to cry, but I knew that if anybody spoke to me or looked at me too closely the tears would fly out of my eyes and the sobs would fly out of my throat and I'd cry for a week…" write about sylvia's Bell Jar sometime